Living in two places is freaking hard. When I’m home, I miss stuff about school, and when I’m at school, I miss stuff about home. And sometimes I call school home and I call my house home and I’m not even sure which one is my home anymore?

And it’s hard being in Sigma Kappa and Chi Alpha at the same time because when I hang out with my sisters a lot, the girls in Chi Alpha get really close without me, but if I focus on my relationship with those girls then my sisters bond without me and so I’m kinda just a floater in both groups and if there’s anything that makes me feel uncomfortable, it’s being a floater.

Bethany and I still haven’t found a church. Not okay.

Had a minor freakout/panic attack before bed last night when I realized that I’m pretty much a grown up now and I’m gonna have to get a forreal job and a husband and a house and kids. Which is all stuff I want but not yet and it’s all just coming too fast.

Finally got my haircut which I desperately needed but it feels so short :(

Everything is changing and nothing is stable. All I need is a little consistency and it’s not happening.

Utterly overwhelmed about life in general, that’s all.

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